we got some news about matt's foster care situation. his mother was sentenced and will be staying in jail. i should feel conflicted about this but really, i'm not. i've felt for a long time that he isn't a priority to her. how much abuse can he take? he doesn't remember when he first came to stay with us when he was 3, but if they keep putting him back in that situation it's going to affect him permanently.
anyway, there's going to be a custody hearing next week. the general consensus is that she'll lose custody permanently and the ministry will get guardianship. which means, matt will be eligible for adoption. But, this has happened before. last year when he was with us, she had a year to convince them she was a fit parent. only when we applied to adopt matt did she realise she needed to take it seriously. if her rights are terminated, we may have to go to another hearing about being his permanent foster parents.
i know we're not supposed to get attached but that's hard to do when you have a child living in your home. he was only supposed to be here for a couple of months and i've been expecting them to suddenly take him back. the thought that he could stay here for good is almost too much to hope for. *flails* i'm really trying not to think about these matters but they creep into my thoughts anyway.
